Hope everyone is well <33 I feel like I know nothing about anyone these days, I'm totally out of the loop... and it's not like I don't care. I wish I could still be around for everyone. Some people back home are going through some really rough shit and it sucks that I can't be there to support them. It makes me feel all the more guilty for having such a good time here. I do care, tremendously. I don't love anyone less since I've left... if anything, distance makes the heart grow fonder.
I'm so corny.
My tooth situation is out of control, Jared's dad can't even do the root canal, I need a special surgeon here at Stony. So 3 weeks and a vicodin prescription later, I'm still in lots and lots of pain... but all I can do is wait, I guess. Putting off the root canal is a good thing, I suppose. I'm SO SO SO scareddd. =/ I hate dentists. Minus Dr. J-skin, of course. Loveee.
My roommate thing isn't being solved either, my RHD is the world's biggest lying sack of shit and I want to choke her. Or at least GET A NEW ROOM. Orrrr at least see my roommate get written up for illegal guests and chain smoking in the room and all those other rules she breaks while they know it's not me, who hasn't walked in there in a month. Ugh. I love it here in ghetto greelizzle, but I wish I had my own bed sometimes.
Tonight's not one of them. I have the room to myself now anyway, which is fun since it's so rare. Before my boys came here on their scavenger hunt for the "frisbee team" *cough*, shirts and ties and dress pants and all, searching for purple bras and bamboo sticks and cambodian breast milk and all that fun stuff. They're intense. I took one [off] for the team, lol, I love them and I'm crazy excited for 'em. This room is so much fun sometimes. Now I feel like the mommy again, waiting up for Joe, god knows what they're doing and I won't sleep until he's back.
The last few weeks have been such a roller coaster. Frat parties and late-night hospital runs, room pranks and football game parties, 'bear attacks' and pillow fights, beerpong and world of warcraft, nerf guns and kings, pirates and piggy back races, quitting smoking and extended fasting, brand new cover concerts and guitar hero shows, super smash tournaments and flipcup, with lots of drama thrown into the mix. I'm loving every minute of it, and everyone around me. Things could be better, but can't they always? For once, I have no complaints.
I got an email of riverdance photo orders today, and I started thinking about marching band and how much I miss them. Getting to visit is always a good time, but the real thrill of band is the bus rides and the night performances and the frostbite in the stands and the cowbell. I'll never get those moments back. I miss those kiddies so much, that experience meant the world to me. I hear there's drama, but what else is new. Appreciate it for what it is, especially you lovely seniors, because it's over in a few weeks and you'll never get it back. You know how awesome it can be! Just relax a little, have a better attitude, and give everyone else an open mind and a helping hand. Don't let the small things get to you, you're only ruining it for yourself.
Last weekend was SO good, justttt like old times. It's weird, I don't sit around consciously missing my friends, but every now and then a 9:17 on the clock or seeing chewy on the floor or a sweet&low packet or the smell of a vanilla dutch makes me wish, not that I was back in the past, but that I could share my happy new life with the people I used to spend every day with. It's nice to have those memories though, and life goes on, but then reuniting with them was all the more fun. Exchanging beer pong rules and drunk stories and observing everyone's new looks and all the while acting like nothing had ever changed. Granted it's only been a little more than a month, it's a huge change and a lot of miles and an insane adjustment. But going home I felt just as close to all my favorite people as I ever was, I hope it stays like that. Brian keeps saying that he's never coming back. I hope he rethinks that. I appreciate home, and you make the best of it, and it's a good thing.
So my tooth hurts but my uggs make up for it. My classes are annoying but at least I'm going to them. My friends are just cuties, they're all making me proud. Life is gooooood. As soon as the room situation is solved I'll let the world know... I CAN"T WAIT to have visitors!!! =))))
( my computer has a MAJOR virus... !!! *cries*Collapse )
PS: I can't decide on a Hallowizzle costume... ideas?